It's New Years Eve, I'm sat here with my best friend, my rock, one of few friends who's been there for me this year, this year has been the hardest and worst year of my life.
2015 was the year I was supposed to graduate from university, but in January I was diagnosed with cancer, stripped from everything, university, work, my independence, literally everything. Cancer mentally and physically destroyed me and changed me forever, I wouldn't wish the brutal side effects on anyone . I call 2015 the worst year of my life but it was also the year that provided me with so many opportunities that I could never imagine, 2015 was the year I became an Auntie to a beautiful little girl called Amelia. I will never forget this year and not only because of the cancer, I was given so many opportunities by some very special charities Teens Unite and Clic Sargent. I've realised that there are some people who will do literally anything for me including catching my vomit (thanks Dad) and some people who completely left me to fight alone, I get it cancer is scary but no one is more scared than me and no one is more lonely than me. I've learned a lot this year, more than any university can teach me and more than different types of blood cancer, I've learned who's important to me, what's important and that no matter how alone you feel, you're never alone there will almost definitely be someone going through the same as you, having the same feelings. The biggest thing I've learned is you can't plan anything, nothing is certain, as grim as it sounds the only thing that's certain is death. But we're still here, still fighting and that's the important part, this year there's been so many people my age or even younger who didn't beat cancer, while you're still here make the most of it, the days we spend in hospital they're just one day, do something nice the next day, make the most of the good days and opportunities charities
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